Finding Jim

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Finding Jim describes Susan Oakey-Baker’s struggle to confront the realities of life after the death of her husband, renowned mountain guide Jim Haberl, the first Canadian to summit the most difficult mountain in the world: K2. For fifteen years they had spent time adventuring together around the world: skiing the Himalaya, rafting in Nepal and mountaineering in North America. In time, they got married, solidified a home for themselves in Whistler, British Columbia, and planned on starting a family. But the future Susan had imagined was not meant to be, and when Jim was killed in an avalanche in the University Range of Wrangell-St. Elias National Park in Alaska, she was faced with a loss greater than anything she ever could have expected.

After Jim’s death, Susan spent time retracing the adventures they took together, in a desperate and obsessive attempt to gather and hold on to as many memories of him as she could. She travelled to the place in Alaska where he lost his life; searched the Queen Charlotte Islands where they had first met; trekked to the top of Mount Kilimanjaro where they had journeyed the year before his death; and scoured the hills around their Whistler home for traces of the man she had expected to spend the rest of her life with.

In the spirit of books like Joan Didion’s The Year of Magical Thinking and Maria Coffey’s Fragile Edge, Susan Oakey-Baker writes eloquently of her efforts to relive and reanalyze her husband's death, to defy the pain that such a loss causes and embrace the healing power of mountains, adventure and wilderness as she reimagines her new life.

Table of contents

Table of contents
Finding Jim 1
Contents 7
Prologue 9
Part 1: Before 11
One: Beginning 13
Two: K2 17
Three: After K2 41
Four: Beginning Again 53
Five: Taking the Next Step 73
Six: Breaking Ground 81
Part 2: After 93
Seven: Day One 95
Eight: Day Two 107
Nine: Day Three 113
Ten: Day Four 117
Eleven: Day Five 123
Twelve: Day Six 127
Thirteen: Day Seven 135
Fourteen: Day Eight 139
Fifteen: Day Nine 143
Sixteen: Day Ten 147
Seventeen: Day Eleven 149
Eighteen: Day Twenty 153
Nineteen: Day Thirty-five 157
Twenty: Day Forty-three 159
Twenty-one: Day fifty 163
Twenty-two: Return to the Queen Charlottes 171
Twenty-three: Out of the Mouths of Babes 183
Twenty-four: Back to Kilimanjaro 185
Twenty-five: Don’t Waste a Crisis 199
Twenty-six: Christmas 203
Twenty-seven: A New Year 211
Twenty-nine: Mother EarthCan Take It 219
Thirty: Drawn Back to Kilimanjaro 223
Thirty-one: Stress Leave 227
Part 3: Healing 233
Thirty-two: Beginning a Year to Heal 235
Thirty-three: Moving Through Spring 241
Thirty-four: Scott Returns 245
Thirty-five: Nepal 253
Part 4: Return 261
Thirty-six: Commitment 263
Thirty-seven: Letting Go Again 267
Thirty-eight: Do What’s Good for Sue 275
Thirty-nine: Drawing from the Heart 281
Forty: France 287
Forty-one: Home 309
Forty-two: Joe 313
Part 5: Hereafter 319
Forty-three: The Perfect Heart 353
Forty-four: Change 359
Acknowledgements 365